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Burned out, Disengaged, In a Rut & Middle Aged: Countering Despair & The Perception of Weakness

Did the title catch your attention?  It almost sounds like a playground taunt.  But its lyrical ring also strikes a meaningful and resounding chord with some of us who are just beginning to hit our stride mentally, emotionally and spiritually.

Living Life on Life’s Terms
In the 12-step milieu, we emphasize the need to “live life on life’s terms.”  This instruction is both an admonishment and a reminder.

As An Admonishment
It’s an admonishment because we must remain especially vigilant in maintaining our reserves of faith, hope and charity— with charity often understood as a selfless and unconditional love for one another.spirit1

We sometimes speak of “deep” thoughts, “deep” feelings” or “deeper” understandings of one thing or another.  Faith in the God of my understanding– a God that reveals Himself through Sacred Scripture– adds that critical dimension of depth to my existence.  If death was once the boundary at which I believed life ended, my faith has eliminated the boundary completely and given me just the tiniest glimpse of the eternity that awaits each of us at the Great Crossing Over.

The realization we are each created and meant for the eternity promised by faith infuses all my activities with hope.  Does this mean I am always free of despair?   Sadly, no.  If I am to be rigorously honest, there are periods still when Satan’s greatest tool– despair- can rob me of the grace of the moment.  But during these times, I choose service to others as my defense.  And I find in such moments that love does, indeed, conquer all.  Faith, hope and love are each inextricably bound to one another and woven into the fabric of my life in recovery.  Where one of these elements ebbs, another flows.

As a Reminder 
handsThe admonishment to live life on life’s terms is also a reminder.  I am reminded that as reeds in life’s great breeze, it is we that must bend against the vagaries of circumstance.  Like that wall that just doesn’t bend to an angry punch, life just doesn’t bend to our will.  Rather, the admonishment to live life on life’s terms instead of on our own terms is a reminder, echoing the Psalmist, that our times are in His hands.  (Ps. 31:15)  There is no randomness, chance or coincidence shaping our experience.  All of our encounters are gifted providentially because all of our time here on Earth is in God’s hands.

How do we transition from here back to the title that originally brought us together?

Mr. A.W. Tozer once said “It is doubtful whether God can bless a man greatly until He has hurt him deeply.”  What this says to me is that for God’s perfect work to be completed in us, (Jas. 1:1-4), we must sometimes be broken so that we can be made whole and stronger in the long run.  Perhaps this is why the thorn remained in St. Paul’s flesh despite his numerous pleas it be removed, (2 Cor. 12:7-12), or why, when surrounded by enemies on every front, Jehoshaphat cries out to God that he is both powerless and clueless as to what to do. (2 Chron. 20:10-12).

And perhaps that’s why, if we find ourselves burned out or disengaged, if we find ourselves in a rut, or if we are anxious at the prospect of having achieved middle age with only “recovery” to claim as our success in life, we can know with assurance that God has found favor with us, and is guiding us, and perfecting us, and drawing us closer to Himself and the place He has established for each of us in His eternal kingdom.


Hopefully, the present Christmas and New Year’s Holiday season will provide us moments to reflect upon all God has done for us, is doing for us, and will continue to do for us as we continue our journey toward the eternity that is our inheritance.

Merry Christmas!

Revolutions of Thought/Resolutions of Spirit: Reprogramming Memories to Sustain Recovery Success

Revolutions of Thought-Resolutions of Spirit
We spent this year’s Turkey Day with family in San Jose, practically a stone’s throw from my hometown of Santa Cruz.  Like the lure of the Sirens’ song, the call of the ocean was irresistible and so we packed up early Friday and hit the beach side town of my youth– my wife, kids and our two dogs.

Hometown Blues
For some, back peddling down memory lane can be a mixed bag of pleasing and painful memories.  We visited Holy Cross Church where I received First Communion as a wee lad and was later Confirmed while a Junior in High school.  I remembered fondly the priests and sisters who gently shaped the foundations of the faith that sustains me today, despite my prolonged and repeated lapses.

We drove past Santa Cruz High School and the home on California Street where I grew up.  For nearly two decades, my father terrorized our family in that home with his alcoholic fury and the violence it created.  We later grabbed slices at the iconic Pizza My Heart and then walked along West Cliff Drive to “Its” Beach, where the dogs, and our kids, spent a couple of hours immersed in sand, surf and sun.

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As my dogs acquainted themselves with the sounds and smells of an ocean they had never seen before, I reflected fondly on the countless days and nights I’d spent there with schoolmates and others– boogie boarding, surfing around the corner at “The Lane” and at Cowells, throwing kegger parties and proudly proclaiming the sands and the town they bordered as my own.  As with each generation, there was a solidarity and a connectedness that linked us to one another and to our hometown.   I was surprised at the sheer volume of long forgotten, but suddenly vivid memories that came rushing back to me as I sat watching our lab skate along the shoreline.

A Small Awakening
In many ways, the town was the same, but as familiar as it was, that deep connectedness I once had to the place had not just eroded, but had vanished altogether.  Santa Cruz is always in my mind, but somehow, it is no longer in my heart.  Home IS where the heart is.  And with this small realization came the confirmation that Redding is my “home” and my “community” today.

Emerging research from the University of Pennsylvania and Freiberg University suggests the brain uses spatial information to categorize memories.  Put another way, there is now some neural evidence our memories are “geotagged” to the places they were formed.  One result is that awestruck feeling we experience when a place triggers a series of recollections and we find ourselves saying “Wow!  I haven’t thought about these things in years!”

Why is this significant?  One reason is, I think, because a community is only as strong as the emotional connection– the degree of caring and concern– its members have toward one another.  However, we live in especially transient times.  Many of our friends, a few colleagues, and members of my own family have become uprooted– forced to relocate to seek work and rebuild lives in other cities and even in other states.  Some hit the ground running, but not all.  And many of these transitions were involuntary.  They were unplanned responses to changed work, or other life-circumstances.

Recovering our Resolve
bigstock-Thinking-Shiny-Gold-5925201There is a familiar kind of perplexing pain– maybe what we might call a separation anxiety— when we leave the comfort of our familiar people and surroundings and head off into the Great-Who-Knows-What.  This sort of anxiety makes relocating and planting new roots an especially daunting task.  We might be reluctant to put ourselves out there, or to throw ourselves into supportive relationships with new neighbors, co-workers or with the strangers we run into at the gym or in the grocery line.  Perhaps we fear the carpet will again be pulled out from under us, causing us to relive the pain of our forced exodus. This sort of anxiety can act as a filter, causing us to view the unknown through the lens of negativity rather than neutrally. 

In my pre-recovery and early-recovery days, if I didn’t know what the future held, I tended to imagine the worst possible outcomes.  This either filled me with despair, or prevented me from taking meaningful action.  I would give up on many goals before I’d even begun, thinking that by doing so, I would avoid the pain of the impending doom I envisioned.  So today, the suggestion we make every attempt to “live one day at a time,” to “live in the now” and to “enjoy the present moment,” are not simply platitudes.   They are instructions for living and stepping stones to achieving each goal I set for myself.

Starting over in a new place presents the opportunity for us to “geotag” new memories within our new surroundings, to forge new connections and lay down new roots.  In fact, we don’t have to relocate to another area to make meaningful connections. We just need to be resolute.

When we experience strong feelings in our daily activities– either because of the residue of the past or speculation about the future, we can be robbed of the contentment of the present moment; or, we can lose the attentiveness that provides an appropriate response to the circumstances as they actually are, rather than as they appear to us through our emotional filters.

For those of us in recovery, our substances of choice were very often also our filters.  We may have used what we used to filter out things we were running from, trying to forget or attempting to avoid– constellations of fears, anxieties, feelings and emotions that drove our addictive obsessions.

“Relocating” from the familiarity of our addictive obsessions to the “serenity” of a “recovered” lifestyle can also leave us feeling as isolated, exposed, or out of sorts as geographically relocating from our hometown to a new and entirely foreign city.  The speed with which we make the transition is always a function of our resolve and efforts to mix into our new digs.

Recovery Resolutions
While the Thanksgiving and Christmas Holiday Season can be a source of joy and family rejuvenation for many, they can be especially difficult for those of us in recovery and also for our families.  The embers of old wounds and resentments may still be smoldering under the surface of the festivities.  We may feel shut out or cut off from the holiday good cheer everyone else seems to be swimming in.  Alternatively, we may find ourselves in new, unfamiliar or different surroundings without the “benefit” of whatever it once was that we depended on to help us through it all.

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If we anticipate problems for ourselves during the holidays, it goes without saying that we should avoid drinking and using.  We should always maintain our determination not to return to our former bondage.

However, it’s just as important to remind ourselves that the core of recovery stretches far beyond simply avoiding substances that once dominated our lives. Recovery also includes the kind of bottom-to-top mental and emotional transformation that starts when we accept that a better life is possible for us and we become “willing to go to any lengths” to attain it.

While that acceptance may occur in a short space of time, the transformation it promises occurs over a lifetime as the tides of honestly, open mindedness and willingness roll in and out of the circumstances and relationships we encounter.

Built into the recovery calculus is the requirement that we put ourselves out there and begin geotagging new memories infused with the knowledge a better life IS attainable for us and is something we deserve and can create for ourselves.

As I again walk down that difficult corridor stretching from November 20th to shortly after January 1st, I know the decisions I will make will be influenced by conscious and unconscious elements of my past.  So I find it useful to put a “framework” in place for responding to the “knowns” and the “unknowns” I’m sure to encounter wherever the Season may take me.

Below, I’ve shared a few strategies that have kept me sober and mostly serene through 10 successive holiday seasons now– including all the days in between!

If these ideas have some value for you, please call or email me and let me know how your holidays progressed.  I’d greatly enjoy connecting our shared experience, strength and hope.  After all, isn’t that what fellowship is all about?


1.            Make the Decision That’s Right For YOU and Share it.
I had an old MGB rag-top convertible I bought for $800.00 and something was always going wrong with it.   It cost me several thousand dollars to maintain over the 2 short years I had it.  Each time, I agonized over whether to fix what was wrong.

But each time I made the firm decision to correct whatever was the issue, I was immediately at peace.  This taught me it wasn’t the frustration or expense of constant repairs that was rattling me. It was the indecision itself.

Similar forces are at work in my recovery.  If I focus on the uncertainties of life, I am sunk.  They are too overwhelming for me.  When I make a decision, or set a goal, I am at peace because the plan provides a framework of predictability leading to a tangible result.  And study after study shows that those who list and communicate their goals to others achieve what they say they want to achieve.

This holiday season, commit to loving yourself. Spend the time with people that are truly good for you and supportive of your recovery goals.  Write down a realistic account of what you want your holiday season to look like and communicate your vision to at least one other person who is supportive of your recovery efforts.  Take little steps in the direction of that vision.

2.             Inventory the minefield
No matter how deeply I may have been stuck in the mud of denial about certain facets of my addiction- ridden obsessive personality, I always knew who, what, when and where slippery people, places and things could be found.  Very often, my insanity lies in the delusional conviction I could again expose myself to them with benign, rather than potentially disastrous, results.

When forming your holiday plans, sit down with your loved one, sponsor, priest, coach or trusted friend and discuss where the potential mines are likely to be found.  Is there a simmering conflict that will be reignited if you adopt Plan A?  Are there deep seated thoughts, feelings or emotions that may bubble up to the surface if you adopt Plan B?  Will Plan C bring you back to a place where a surge of disheartening memories will hit you like a tsunami?

What are some of the potential triggers, red flags or slippery slopes you are likely to encounter this season?   Talking or thinking about such contingencies can help you plan a reasonable response if they happen.

3.            Take stock of your recovery capital
Give yourself permission to leave the past in the past. Don’t get bogged down by it.  You can’t change it or its effects on others but you can change its effects on YOU!  Focus on what is presently good in yourself and your surroundings:  your family, friends and community.

List and discuss the tools you have available to you right now to REASONABLY adjust to circumstances as they unfold.  Start thinking of how you will ROLL with the punches instead of THROWING them!  If it helps, look at what you wrote down when you “inventoried the minefield” above.

What tools do you have that you can use if you encounter one of the mines you’ve listed?  If you can’t think of any tools, is walking through that minefield really a good idea for you at this time?  What are some other options you have this year that will allow you to avoid the mine but have the holiday that’s right for you?

4.            Write out your strategy
As silly as this sounds, I still do this.  If I know I’m going to be at So-and So’s house this year, then Uncle You-Know is gonna be there too and you can bet the conversation will eventually turn to Thus-and-So.  If it does, then I am going to do This, That and the Other.  I have it written down.  I can look at it if I have to. 

I have a couple words outlining a simply strategy for each mine that I might encounter.  And, in bold and allcaps, at the bottom of the list, I have written:  “UNDER NO CIRCUMSTANCES WILL I ALLOW MYSELF TO:  ________________________”  and I describe each potential behavior I am committing to avoid.

5.            Plan to Succeedbigstock-Leadership-and-business-vision-44452543

As simple as this sounds, so many of us in recovery have been so beaten down by life, and have grown so accustomed to continually failing that we no longer have a clear idea of what success means for us personally.  If we do have some vague notion, we are often more doubtful than hopeful we can make that vision of success a reality in our lives.

First, be realistic and honest about your situation, strengths and life circumstances.  Aim high in all that you doBut aim for something that makes sense given your unique gifts and talents.

Second, don’t stop believing your dreams can AND WILL happen for you if you just don’t give up.

Third, just don’t give up!

Bringing it all home, make the firm decision to have a joy-filled holiday season this year.  Think about what the season means to you personally, how you want to celebrate it and who you want to spend it with.  Choose the options that maximize your sense of joy and personal fulfillment and that minimize the potential for sadness, discontent or despair.

Be aware of your triggers and hot buttons and have planned strategies for keeping on course when they get pushed– because they will! And in all that you do, believe in your heart that life and its possibilities are larger than our minds can imagine.  As you struggle through life’s trials, remember, they too shall pass.

Allow your spirit to be moved by visions of your present and future successes, rather than by memories of your past failures and worst behaviors.

And you will find that slowly and steadily, your recovery goals will become every day realities in your life.

Striving for Progress in a Perfect World: Strategies for Putting Yourself at Ease When Falling Short Means Falling Off

Often during the Christmas Holiday our minds may be a typhoon of bitter memories– images of past holidays perhaps ruined by our worst behaviors.  In our hearts, we may repeat stories and narratives of self condemnation, self- judgment, discouragement and despair.   As much as we might fight it, we may allow these storms of self-defeating mental habits to convince us we are unworthy or incapable of meaningful change– robbing us of the peace of this joy-filled season.bigstock-Trouble-Ahead-Concept-44167990 (2)

Those of us who, by the grace of our God and despite our addiction histories, have salvaged careers that demand “perfection” as the only acceptable, face an especially challenging emotional struggle.  As a practicing lawyer, I’m constantly made aware of my own personal and professional imperfections— by bosses, co-workers, clients, judges, colleagues and especially by opposing counsel.  And we wont talk about the many contributions to this awareness offered by parenthood and marriage!

Yet, inspired by the stories of, and working closely with, those walking the recovery path with me, I’ve managed as well as they have to maintain that hopeful determination that keeps each of us moving forward in recovery and in life– including in our careers (and marriages!)  

One of the most important breakthroughs my 12-Step Sponsor helped me with was learning how to be “resolute”– firmly committed and determined to succeed with a task– while also remaining “flexible.”

Perhaps you, along with many of us, still struggle with the old idea that once a goal is identified, plans are formed, set in motion, and the process is strenuously managed until the outcome is achieved as planned.  There is a rigidity involved in all this that doesn’t tolerate deviation, life’s random swerves or unforeseen circumstances.  There is a belief at work that it can all be predicted, accounted for, and controlled.

Those of us in this boat– well, we may not yet be comfortable with those parts of ourselves that can’t bend without breaking!  In the 12-Step arena, many of us have humbly asked the God of our understanding to remove our shortcomings and defects of character only to be continually overwhelmed by the sheer number He’s left in place.

At such times, I have to remind myself of the Scriptural message in James that tells me each of my character defects  and related shortcomings point me right to the areas of my life I still need to work on.  Trying and failing at anything– whether changing our worst habits or changing the world– are just routine facts of life.

That is why we must learn to allow ourselves to be comfortable only with our progress, and not with perfection.  Progress in LifeFor now, let perfection be the goal of those better disposed to deal with the pain of repeated failure.  Perfection may be a goal for us at some time in the future.  But for now, be comfortable focusing on progress in your life.

Is this an excuse to give less than 100% of our actual capabilities?  Absolutely not!

The distinction between progress and perfection is relevant to attitudes we hold about ourselves and others.   As we do what we are able to the best of our abilities, we slowly learn to recognize that others are doing the same.   We recognize and begin to accept their shortcomings are really not so different than our own.  Rather than zeroing in on the differences that supposedly separate us, we start focusing on the attributes we share– even, if not especially, the Not-So-Great ones!

Moving toward “progress” in a culture obsessed with delusions of “perfection” requires  a firm foundation of personal humility.  Thus, a couple of important recovery principles to always keep in mind might include:

1.  Learn to become comfortable with the progress you make in each area of your recovery walk; and

2.  Learn to recognize your own shortcomings in others that you might otherwise be quick to judge and engage with in unhealthy and unproductive ways.

3.  Think of ways to measure your progress in the areas of greatest importance to you.

Practicing these principles of humility in all of our affairs gives us the strength to persevere over time and ultimately sustain the resolutions we make until we achieve the goals we set for ourselves.

Applying these principles in YOUR recovery walk, you will not only find you are free from the bondage of that obsessive craving that once colored your life.  You will find the new peace and freedom of mind and attitude that comes from breaking free of the mental chains of self-judgment, of believing you can control outcomes that you cannot, and from the grandiosity that tells you you are capable of more than your individual abilities may truly allow for.

Be content with “progress.  You will always be at the apex of your personal power, effectiveness and “perfection” when:

1.  You are doing what you are actually capable of doing, not more or less;

2.  Doing it to the very best of your ability in the present moment; and,

3.  Allowing the God of your personal understanding to manage the ultimate result.

I wish all who are walking the path of recovery with me a blessed and joy-filled Christmas Season and extend my best wishes to you for a prosperous and transformative New Year.


Paul Meidus, Recovery Coach  Life Coach Paul Meidus

“Connecting Insight & Action with Achievement”

Mending, Maturing & Mindy McCready: Minimizing the Dangers of Impulsivity

Ours is a culture preoccupied with disorders, diagnoses and interventions.  Yet, for all the diagnosing, intervening and treating that goes on, we still encounter unspeakable tragedy, sometimes predictable, but mostly unpredictable, in the personal dramas unfolding in our communities.

Just 2 short months before Country Music singer Mindy McCready took her own life, the world was introduced to the architect of the Sandy Hook tragedy, 20-year old Adam Lanza.  Ironically, while Sandy Hook breathed new life into debates about gun control, those commenting on Mindy’s suicide, which also involved the use of a gun, invariably suggested stronger therapeutic interventions would likely have rescued her from the demons that plagued her throughout much of her life.

I mention Sandy Hook only in passing.  This isn’t a comparison and contrast.  What is notable is that while both Mindy and Adam clearly suffered from damaged psyches, public dialogue around Sandy Hook demanded a political fix to what was perceived as a problem with guns, while the dialogue surrounding Mindy’s death focused on a clinical fix to a perceived condition of her mind.  In Adam’s case, the political fixes all looked externally at the weaponry available to him.  In Mindy’s case, the clinical fix looked internally at what was missing in her.

Mindy Unmended
On February 17, 2013, Mindy became the latest casualty of the battle for mature self-mccreadyworth.  She died from a self-inflicted gunshot to the head at the age of 37, an effort that culminated several prior attempts.   The AP noted Mindy was one of several cast members of celebrity shrink Dr. Drew Pinsky’s to die since appearing on “Celebrity Rehab.”  Dr. Drew diagnosed Mindy with “love addiction,” a somewhat vague phenomenon that eludes consensus among mental health professionals.

Mindy’s very public life-crisis punctuated what many looking on from the outside would consider a charmed existence.  Yet, despite her celebrity trappings– the fame, the adoration of her fans, and the financial security we might associate with her success– Mindy’s story points us to that deep hole into which so many of us spiral– professionals, celebrities and closer-to-the-Earth folks, alike.  Many of us have some firsthand experience with that deep, dark pit where hope no longer exists.  Perhaps we can identify in some personal way with Mindy’s experience of either approaching, or having reached the point where all hope is lost, where we honestly feel like we can no longer go on.  But, unlike Mindy, we are still here, pressing on, having regained our bearing, or at least the determination to carry on with our lives.

The AP ran a story a couple days after her death that was significant for many reasons, not the least of which was what Mindy’s tragedy teaches us about the role of maturing hope and meaningful aspiration in our lives.  The AP piece referenced statistics from the Centers for Disease Control & Prevention noting the 38,364 suicides in 2010.  It quoted Dr. Sharon Hirsh of the University of Chicago’s Department of Psychiatry and Behavioral Neuroscience, who reminded us that those who struggle with addictive tendencies, as Mindy did, have lower impulse control.  The piece went on to suggest that perhaps stronger therapeutic interventions might have saved Mindy.

Can Love Save Me Now?
I am no longer surprised at the significant number of recovery newcomers– those in their first year of recovery– that find their “recovery soul mates” in the first 60-90 days of their recovery efforts, and who then disappear, only to return at some future point and reintroduce themselves as being in their first few days of recovery.

And who among us can blame them?   Recovery is a traumatic process in which many of our most uncomfortable personal weaknesses and shortcomings are laid bare.  In addition to all the other stressors acting on us as we begin the recovery journey, we must suddenly confront the ocean of moods, feelings and emotions we’ve spent considerable time and energy numbing ourselves against.

For many of us, this seems like an ideal time to seek a feel-good partner to help us cushion the blows recovery throws at us.  But the temptation to test the “love cure,” invariably yields the same predictable result.  In Book III of his Confessions Augustine writes:

“To Carthage I came, where there sang all around me in my ears a cauldron of unholy loves. I loved not yet, yet I loved to love…I sought what I might love, in love with loving, and safety I hated, and a way without snares.”

We seek refuge in the warmth of another’s love and affection.  Perhaps this is the lure of romantic love.  Yet, Augustine’s confession illustrates our predilection for investing all of ourselves in certain connections, beyond the point where the connections are healthy for us or where we lack the necessary maturity.  Was it Mindy’s “love addiction” that prevented her from resisting the voice of impulse in the last moments of her life?  Was it truly the voice of impulse that whispered “…suicide…” as she struggled to regain the hope she lost scarcely a year earlier after her soul-mate similarly ended his life?  Was she, like Augustine, so “in love with loving” that she forgot herself completely in the intensity of her affection?

Ernest Becker explained in The Denial of Death how romantic love operates as a refuge from the deeper problems of existing as physically and intellectually vital creatures, uneasily aware we will one day cease to exist.

bigstock-Romantic-couple-lovers-holding-45243613Becker suggested that sophisticated modern man has outgrown religion, and the result is that romantic love now occupies the role once occupied by the God of eternity in our lives.  Our dependence on another, in the context of romantic love, has supplanted our loss of spiritual identity and ideology. As Becker tells it:

“…the self-glorification that [man] needed in his innermost nature he now looked for in the love partner. The love partner becomes the divine ideal within which to fulfill one’s life… All spiritual and moral needs now become focused in one individual… The point is that if the love object is divine perfection, then one’s own self is elevated by joining one’s destiny to it…”

However, since none of us can bear the burden or fullness of the Godhead, our humanity chips at the edges of our romantic vision.  Our romantic linkage slowly devolves into housekeeping.  And as our bodies bend, crack and wrinkle with age, our love bends, cracks and wrinkles with familiarity, boredom and routine.  Our lover buckles under the weight of the impossible task we’ve assigned her or him, and the imperfections of our mate reveal the irreparable flaws of humanity.  In this regard, Becker says:

“…we get back a reflection from our loved objects that is less than the grandeur and perfection that we need to nourish ourselves. We feel diminished by their human         shortcomings. Our interiors feel empty or anguished, our lives valueless, when we see the inevitable pettinesses of the world expressed through the human beings in it.  For this reason, too, we often attack loved ones and try to bring them down to size…”

Godhood is a daunting responsibly to foist upon another human being.  With some latitude at the edges, we can see these ideas at work in Mindy’s life, as well as in some of our own life and recovery histories.  When romantic love fails to sustain us, when we lose a mate,  find ourselves drifting apart or backsliding into old habits, we can become immersed in that hopelessness that leads inevitably to despair and relapse.  But this despondency certainly is not beyond the reach of restorative or transformative healing.  Soul care obviates the need for legislative or clinical responses to timeless manifestations of the human condition.

Mending & Maturing
At a time when the message and symbolism of Scripture carried a deeper significance, St. Paul wrote in his letter to the Hebrews:

“…though by this time you ought to be teachers, you need someone to teach you again the first principles of God’s word.  You need milk, not solid food…solid food is for the mature, for those who have their faculties trained by practice to distinguish good from evil.” (Heb. 5:12-14.)

Although directed to the readers of Paul’s day, the passage still points toward an inner process of spiritual maturation that we must train to achieve through practice.  Reflecting on Mindy’s Pentacostal upbringing, I am reminded of the many who faithfully dedicate their time to religious activities in their congregations, yet never mature spiritually.  They are born in Pampers and they matriculate in Depends!  They remain spiritual infants because they lack the appropriate internal training and practice, making Paul’s words as relevant today as in his day.


Spiritual maturity is not a level to be attained.  Rather, it is the passion, fueled by hope, to press forward while courageously facing down our adversities. The risk inherent in our cultural overindulgence in therapeutic interventions is that we ignore the spiritual dimension of our deepest wounds.  Similarly, the risk of emphasizing theological propositions to exorcise the demons lurking in our psyches is that we ignore the neurological dimension of our wounded natures.  Each risk concerns elements of the other.  As the philosopher and theologian Paul Tillich noted:

“…neither the medical, nor the priestly function is bound to its vocational representatives: the minister may be a healer and the psychotherapist a priest, and each human being may be both in relation to the neighbor…the goal of both of them is helping men reach full self affirmation, to attain the courage to be…”

When we are confronted with the voice of impulse, what the science of brain and mind suggests is that the architecture of the voice is a fact of experience over which we can exert little control. The “voice” arises in a side area of the prefrontal part of our brain. This area is responsible for such things as planning, choosing and suppressing urges.  It cooperates with that part of the brain that regulates emotions.

Marc N. Potenza, MD, an associate professor of psychiatry and child study at Yale University School of Medicine, tells us impulsivity involves both rapid, unplanned reactions and reduced concern for the consequences of our actions.  However, the content of what the voice delivers to us, is something over which we have considerable influence.  Dr. Potenza tells us we can learn to control ourselves simply by paying better attention to this voice inside our heads.

The idea we can be mindful of and transform the “voice” of our own impulsivity is a cornerstone assumption of the Recovery Coaching process.  Whether viewed as a “shift in perspective” or a “change in life-narrative,”  Dr. Potenza’s assurance should inspire renewed hope in those of us who struggle for the high ground of impulse control in our effort to sustain long term recovery.

We know there was infinitely more depth to Mindy’s life story than the tragic figure painted by media coverage following her death.  However, her passing certainly teaches us that acting upon emotional impulsivity, rather than from a place of evolving and thoughtful maturity, can truly have life or death consequences.  This is especially true for those of us in the Recovery Community, which experience has demonstrated don’t always have the best handle on our emotions.

Action Steps
With a nod toward training our faculties by practice to move toward maturity, here are abigstock-Ebusiness-Competition-2782154 few strategic Soul-Care ideas you can put into practice in your Recovery Plan.  They may help put the brakes on impulsive urges before such urges put the brakes on your happiness and success.  At the same time, they may help you build the emotional and spiritual strength and maturity– the Recovery Capital–  that can carry you through even the greatest struggles:

  • Self-Care is Soul Care— Be mindful of what your feelings are telling you and have a plan for addressing your clearly negative self talk. Engage in activities that bring you enjoyment and relaxation.  Prioritize exercise, getting enough rest, eating well and finding time for quiet reflection.
  • Connection & Relatedness—  The “I” of self always exists within the “We” of community.  Emphasize the quality, rather than the number, of your relationships. I’ll trade a thousand Facebook friends, LinkedIn connections, or twitter followers for one genuine BFF any day of the week.  Surround yourself with the people that genuinely care about your well-being, who challenge you to be your best, and who are not afraid to tell you when you are heading in the wrong direction.  Avoid “frienemies”— or superficial “friends” who support, encourage and agree with all that you say and do, even when what you do is clearly unhealthy.  Join one or more community or faith-based groups that inspire hope by involving you in the needs of others.  This helps you focus your attention away from your own circumstances and builds resistance against the voice of impulse.
  • Monitor GIGOMy wife has an expression, “Garbage In, Garbage Out/Good In, Good Out” (G.I.G.O.).  Be mindful of what you allow yourself to become exposed to.  Take long breaks from toxic people, from media coverage of horrific events, and from negativity generally.  Connect with the true and the good, with the timeless wisdom and virtue that speaks to you.  And when you are drawn toward something, be mindful of what in its character is speaking to you.
  • Problems are Opportunities— Life must be lived on its own terms.  Rarely can we avoid the highly stressful and oftentimes traumatic character of daily living. But how we interpret and respond to events is something over which we have great influence.  Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% what you think about what happens to you. When confronted with trying times, remember “this too shall pass.”  Focus on the strengths you have available to address the challenge and how overcoming the challenge will move you closer to the image of the very best version you hold of yourself.  At bottom, challenges are opportunities to flex your mental, emotional and spiritual muscles and harvest the fruits of your efforts.
  • Transitions are Facts of Life–  As we grow older and evolve, certain ambitions  may no longer be realistic as a result of adverse situations or other life circumstances.  Strive for what is within your capabilities, reach for those things that are attainable with effort, expand your capabilities with each opportunity and be content with your results, knowing you’ve given you very best efforts.
  • Progress rather than Perfection–  While it is good to set extraordinary goals, it is equally good to perform everyday tasks in an extraordinary way— focusing on being complete and comprehensive. You will also find that small accomplishments build on one another in a way that allows extraordinary achievements to occur over time.  Ask yourself, “what small step can I take right now that moves me toward this large goal I’ve set for myself?”
  • Take Clear Actions— Similarly, Act!.  Don’t worry if every step is not mapped out.  Don’t worry if problems can be seen lingering on the horizon.  Take clear and intentional action toward your goals understanding most perceived problems will either disappear before you encounter them and the rest you will find are quite manageable as your strengths and confidence build together over time.
  • Tune Into What is PositiveNegative thinking robs you of the enjoyment of life and is generally learned behavior. It tends to attract others with similarly negative vibes and turns away those with brighter outlooks.  An optimistic worldview assumes good things will come your way and attracts others with similarly positive outlooks.  Surrounded by others who are hopeful about their circumstances reinforces your reservoir of hope and will carry you through trying times.  Even when negative thinking overcomes you, ask yourself, “what do I know to be positive in my experience in all this?”   There will be positive elements in each set of circumstances that you can make your point of reference.
  • Keep Perspective— When you don’t know the future, do you fill in the blanks with the worst possible scenarios?  Do you then shy away from moving forward– toward an event or situation?  Even when facing very painful events, try to consider the stressful situation in a broader context, and keep a long-term view of things.  See where the situation fits into the larger picture of your life and ambitions.
  • Be Kind to YourselfHave a healthy and realistic view of yourself and your abilities and limitations.  Don’t overstate your strengths, gifts and talents.  Also, don’t overstate your weaknesses, faults, and shortcomings.  Relax your grip on self-perceptions that were given to you by others and those perceptions will relax their grip on you.  Have confidence in your personal power, value and worth as a person.
  • Grow YourselfLife is a process and you are a work in progress rather than a finished product. While we languish or even stagnate in our successes, we seem to actually grow stronger in unexpected ways after struggling through adversity or loss.  Challenging events grow stronger relationships, a greater sense of personal strength and purpose, and deep feelings of self-worth and value, often adding to the dimension of depth and meaning in our spirituality and love of life. 

Resiliency is a critical element of maturity.  The ability to live life on life’s terms and to bounce back from adversity lies at the heart of personal resiliency.  Like muscle memory, this ability increases with focus and effort and requires training and practice.  Behavioral strategies that can help keep you grounded as you deal with the stresses and uncertainties of living include:

  • Taking initiative in dealing with your problems and meeting the challenges of daily living.
  • Getting support and encouragement from those committed to your health, happiness and well-being.
  • Asking for help from others when you are at an impasse and investing in yourself by working with appropriate professionals to accomplish your long term objectives.

Professional Recovery Coaching allows you to explore, evaluate and transform your life’s master narrative.  As a Recovery Coach, I will walk with you in the wilderness of your life story,  help you recognize the voices of impulsivity and develop change-strategies appropriate to your personal long term recovery objectives.

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